Put my nose to the grindstone

I’m not sure what kind of state I’m in right now.. I’m miserable but yet can laugh about it I just put my situation into statements : - Ever feel you’re tired of doing something but you just can’t stop it? - Here I am.. waiting. Life is waiting. (The Terminal, Tom Hanks). If you think that waiting is negative, I’m not sitting back and let something happen. I’m fighting in my despair Someone gave me this profound quote: - The best thing about loving and being hurt is you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire and so will love be perfected in pain.. (thanks Mang!) And the following statements, came from my short but intense YM conversation with my dear friend Tanya: (Thank You dear..) - There's nothing wrong with believing in love - There must be external forces, which I believe is the power of God that strengthen me as a weak human being to become stronger than ever in this agony - You can’t feel the bitterness and the sweetness of love unless you take the plunge... - I’m not there yet.. I haven’t got to the point where I can fully be unruffled with what decision I’ve taken Bahasa premannya: ‘karena kalo lo gak berasa udah mentok, adanya lo gak tuntas dan makin gantung !’ some of you probably think of me as this pathetic loser or stubborn girl .. oops.. correction! pathetic cute loser or stubborn cute girl.. It’s a free world, full of different interpretation.. (But, You have to believe that I’m so damn cute!! Hahahaha) So while I’m hanging in there, I just put my nose to the grindstone.. Your responsibility to the professional world somehow is able to make you concentrate not only on your misery.. It helps. Mari kita bekerja kawan! Hahaaha